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Thursday, July 30, 2015

Hmmmmm

Hello my friends.  I'm sorry I've been away for an entire week.  Not a lot to say I guess.

I have been knitting baby hats. I got six out of one skein of yarn.  One had to be made preemie size to be able to finish it.

Two hats made from Teresa's crochet pattern and another one "on the hook".

I had a baby blanket half done but decided I didn't like it so I ripped it out completely.  I have another one started now.


I've had a bit of a trying week.  Lots of pain and lots of tears.  I don't know why I keep crying all the time.  I'm NOT normally like his.  I have started taking Bach Flowers, Rescue Remedy and it seems to be helping.  Nita swears by it.  I don't know if Dennis would think it's helping though.  He's so frustrated.  Men fix things.  He wants to fix me.

I talked to the nurse this morning at the cardiologists office.  She said my recovery will take a bit longer than normal for a couple of reasons.  I don't have much fat where the pacemaker is.  (That's the only place on my body without much fat!)  So it will apparently take longer to "settle in".  Also, my surgery was pretty traumatic.  Almost 4 hours instead of 1 1/2 that was planned.  I still have lots of swelling and bruising, especially under my left arm.  Try shaving there ladies!  Ha!  Too much information?


I have gone to the lake a couple of times with Nita and last weekend with Dennis and Chloe and although I love it there, I'm still in pain and frustrated at not doing anything.  I made potato salad this morning and it wore me out.  It's supposed to be 101F for the next 3 days, so I think I'll be hibernating either at home in the air conditioning or in the trailer in the air conditioning!


Now, before I bring you all down to my level of blah with all of my "ick", I'm going to stop writing.  I have been reading your blogs and I'm enjoying your summer and travels immensely.

"Search me oh God, and know my heart: test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."  Psalm 139:23-24


Blessings,
Betsy


16 comments:

  1. Oh, Betsy. I'm so sorry you have been in so much pain and so miserable. Like Dennis, I wish I could fix it for you. You've been through it this past month, so it's no wonder you are emotionally up and down and sideways. Pain always makes me feel a little crazy too. Don't you worry. It will all be a distant memory before long. The hot weather doesn't help anything either. Ugh? What's up with that? Thankfully, it's going to be a bit cooler up here. I still have the air conditioner going though. I just can't take the heat. Seems to be worse the older I get. I've settled in for a bit of crochet yesterday and today. It's so nice to feel halfway "normal" and be able to crochet on something. I see you have been busy with some of that yourself. I'm always amazed at how fast you are. Hope you are feeling better really soon, my dear! Call or text me if you want to! And I didn't hear about the fire yesterday! Yikes!

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  2. Oh sweet friend, hang in there. Sending prayers and hugs your way dear friend. :)

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  3. sorry for all pain you have. it quite normal with emotions after a heartsurgery, after a while those tears will stop. take care and blessings Jaana

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  4. Dear Betsy.. I'm so sorry you're going through this rough time. Just remember that you usually are running circles around the rest of us and will be back to your old self soon. I could only dream of being as active and amazing as you are usually. We are in Boise for the night and home after a long drive tomorrow. I'm SOOOOOOOOOO ready to be home!! Hang in there.. ((hugs)), Teresa :-)

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  5. Dear Betsy, I'm so sorry you are still having a hard time. Pain is so difficult. I also agree that it is common to be depressed or emotional after heart surgeries. All you need is time to heal. In the meantime do what you can but rest when you need to. You will see....you will get better everyday. Hugs

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  6. Dear heart, I know this is hard for you. The pain is normal but that's not what you you want to hear. Having been through OPH surgery with my son (twice now) and countless pacemaker replacements, I know some of what you are going through. Let the tears come. That's part of your body recovering. I know it is frustrating. When my son had his first OPH at 14, he broke into tears suddenly. He was embarrassed about it because he was a boy and "boys don't cry" but the emotional toll is hard after any of this kind of surgery. I know you don't want to hear this but, it takes time to heal. Rest, relax and try not to worry about anything. I know, easier said than done. But please concentrate on yourself.
    Sending you tons and tons of hugs and love,
    Sharon

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  7. So sorry to hear your news of pain and feeling tearful. All I can do is wish you well, sending you a virtual hug and know that you will be in my prayers, hope that helps. Take care.

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  8. So, so sorry to hear that you are feeling so much pain.

    Sending love and prayers for a speedy return to good health.

    Helenxx

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  9. Hopefully the pain will subside soon. It's never easy going through medical procedures. Gentle hugs and prayers for you, my friend. This too will all pass away and you will feel better soon. I know husbands tend to want to fix it for us but there are times when they cannot. It is nice to have them care so much about us, huh? Love ya and stay cool. It has been extremely hot here, 102 today and yesterday...about 106 Thankful for a/c in house and car and places I shopped. Now I need to water my outdoor plants.

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  10. Hélio my dera Friend Betsy, i have Been in Brazil n just came back. I was thinking about you and not sure when your surgery was going to be. So glad that it went well in spite of some issues. I'm so very sorry you are in so much pain. I really wish you lived closer and I could go see you and bring you a dinner. Because I can't I will keep on praying for you and I'm sure God will bring comfort to you and He will be right beside you though this difficult time. Miss you my dear friend and take care of yourself. All my love💕

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  11. Lord Jesus, I lift up our friend to you tonight that you will heal the pain she is in and give her her life back ful of vim and vinegar, in Jesus name, let it be! Amen

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  12. Hugs to you, Betsy. I'm sorry this recovery had been so difficult for you. I know that isn't much comfort but I'm thinking of you. My son is doing better but he still has a little ways to go and he's not enjoying it much either. I hope you're able to enjoy your crafts and get lots of rest. Can you go to the library? Maybe you can stock up on books and videos to watch. I hope friends can drop it often to see you. Take care and know we're all thinking about you.

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  13. Sweet, sweet Betsy, it is always after the event that we women finally get to let loose and deal with it all and that is exactly what you are doing. I am so sorry you are in pain, I am sending you positive, healing thoughts and prayers all the time. You are always in my heart.
    Hugs,
    Meredith

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  14. I hope that you are feeling better today. You are on my prayers list.

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  15. Oh Betsy! I am so sorry you are having such a rough time. Please don't be so hard on yourself! Cry is you need too and be gentle with yourself-giving yourself the time your body needs to heal! I will be thinking of you and praying. xoxoxo

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  16. Oh Betsy, I'm so sorry to hear that things have been rough for you. Don't feel bad about your fatigue or your moodiness; both can be common after surgery, and can last quite a while (not saying that to depress you but just to let you know there's nothing wrong with you).

    Anesthetic does funny things to the body, and the longer you're under the longer it takes to exit your system. And heart surgery can have odd effects too - a co-worker has told me her husband's personality changed quite a bit after he had heart surgery. Not just heart surgery either - when my husband had a brain tumor 21 years ago, we found that depression is quite common after brain surgery. It took him years to get better emotionally.

    We are indeed fearfully and wonderfully made and I thank God for giving us doctors and medical technology. But sometimes I think that invasive procedures can have a deeper and more lasting effect than we realise (but again, thank God for all the things that can be accomplished with these procedures).

    Hang in there, take it slowly, and try not to feel bad about what you can't do. Just do what you can. And it's okay to let your family know that you have limited reserves right now.

    Those little hats are adorable - I love the way the colour changes swirl around them! :)

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